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Sexual Desire, Libido, Kink thoughts
I was talking with a Sir Brother of mine, Sir Rein, during one of His visits to Our House. We were mutually sharing our sense of confusion towards our feelings and emotions regarding the BDSM sessions that We’ve had in the past two years.
In my case, I’ve experienced a strange lack of sexual desire, libido and kinky thoughts. It is true that I’ve personally been extremely absorbed by business, but it’s not like I didn’t want to have sex. I just wasn’t horny. The worries in my minds were much louder than the need for sex, and I’ve started to feel this might be a consequence of the (ongoing) CoVid19 Tragedy.
If, like me, you are one of those people who took this seriously, you might have also experienced a sense of hyper focus on survival, meaning taking care of the things that really matter for survival (eg: health, fitness, nutrition, business, money..), and a sense of feeling like all the rest, all the life “before CoVid19” was something that has been frozen. Not destroyed, not removed, but put in a state of “pause”.
I think that sense of pause was accompanied by something more hideous, more powerful and dangerous: the sense of not seeing a clear end to this situation.
As a result, while I haven’t stopped meeting My slave or My boy, I was not as connected as I’ve always been. Sure I had a great time, like always, and we’ve had fun. But IT was like if I was anesthetized to the galvanic feeling of the power of BDSM, when all of your body and every cell of your brain is hyperactive, raw, and boiling. Something had changed, something very difficult to identify, and the more I kept going, the more I started noticing I was not creating long big sessions like before anymore. It was more minimalistic in a way, and way shorter.
Do you think you’ve also been feeling the same? Have you experienced my same thoughts and change in sexual behavior?
If so, you should continue your reading to “Covid and the Emotional Blockage“ by clicking on “I agree“.
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